i'm a dork

I am making up for missing so many blogging days by blogging twice in a day. oh well. so. today was interesting. and i quite frankly have never had to deal with such large issues. on my break today my mom called and left a message saying basically to apply for edina because they have a few art teaching positions and i have connections there. i don't know what to do. so i am applying and if i get it i will be moving back to mn. i have so much i am scared of. i have a new good job... we are getting super cheap rent! and i just feel like there is unfinished business in this state i need to recon with. but i know when my stomach starts hurting, i need to grow up and face the news and do what is best for my future. i just hate dealing with schools. they take forEVER to make a decision... it's scary, especially now with so many jobs on the line... and the move. i'm freaking out. at the beginning of march, we thought we were moving to omaha into a house... now we may be moving back this year! WHAT THE HELL! help me friends! i hate this. on top of that, the test taking people left me a message. that is not natural... and i can't call until monday! i didn't cheat, and i hope i didn't fail it so bad i'm never allowed to take it again! i am so nervous!
Luckily i'm done at well fargo, and on to new and better things. i am learning what it means to not be in control of life... and trusting only good will be in the future by trusting God. I am also grateful tomorrow is birth control appreciation day! mike has decided he wanted to take a day and appreciate all the crap my body has had to go through to not become pregnant. the emotions going nuts... the need to eat more.... i don't know. any day he wants to spoil me. that is awesome!
well... i am going to unwind and try to sort through all of these things going on!

much love to everyone!

I have 2 minutes to update.

This is brief but i have been hella busy and i need to be at work in 40 minutes and i am sitting her not quite fully dressed. LAST DAY AT WELLS FARGO! i am so excited! yes! and i can't wait to see you all up in the beautiful and nearly perfect state of MN! especially for card night!!!! wednesday or thursday!
I feel quite a bit happy right now.
TALK TO YOU SOON!

I don't have any photos today... i am sorry.

I got back from minnesota yesterday and i already miss it. it was a good time, and i am so glad we got to go. today is a day full of house keeping. paying bills, budgeting, grocery shop, laundry, and generally get myself organized for a successful week for mike and i. we need to get on track with a tight budget... and it's hard sometimes.
kitties are now declawed. it's beautiful. although i feel a little bad because chesty's energy got him injured. he is not supposed to jump on the counters and run around... so what does he do last night?!? jumps up to the bathroom counter and now he is limping. poor little honey. ozma is doing a wonderful job resting, he is sleeping away! good little baby.
also... i hate dealing with med insurnace who doesn't credit contraceptives. mine apparently doesn't value it... at least i don't have to pay more than 10 a month. but the whole week and dealing with dumb medical people who screwed up my appointment... i won't go into it, but i got deadly close to running out of bc this week and encountering the lady doctor in a wierd and more than usually awkward way... end of month... ya know... but luckily it held out! and i have a new supply of goods.
good things... i went to some fun places during my stay and have decided mn is the best ever. i went to a place called the weanery on riverside and cedar in minneapolis and was impressed by the best hot dogs ever. it's a complete hole in the wall, with about any kind of dog you could ever want with just about anything on it... and the fries are delish! they cut a potato up right then and there! another good place i went was the muddy pig. it was a great experience. lots of beers and such on tap, and the food was wonderful. the music was good there and the atmosphere was nice. it was a little pricy, but was good to experience!
well, it's time to seize the day and get a lot done!!!! please pray for chesty for a quick recovery and that he stops limping, my poor baby!

LOVE YOU and missed seeing you! we will spend lots of time together in the next couple weeks! i promise! card night and wine... it will be amazing!

I hope you feel better adina!

Hello again

I am so stressed out. Why should i be stressed. I hate automated services on the phone. i am currently trying to pay our dumb internet/cable bill before we leave for MN. AHHH! i could punch someone. why do they all have to be so complicated. we always have a problem with this stupid service! OH MY GOODNESS! now i find out they are closed! bull crap! Let me tell you also why i am stressed... i haven't packed, i haven't cleaned, i haven't worked out... i haven't done much but eat and catch up on dvr. i just want to go to mn, but instead my manager decided to have a meeting early tomorrow morning and i work until 12 and such. ick. nasty garbage smell, double ick! hold on, i need to change that it is driving me nuts. much better!
I think it's interesting how some good tunes blasting help get the organized and cleaning juices going. Chris Thile is amazing. he is a singer in nickel creek. His voice!!! amazing. how distracted can i get while writing a blog. it's ridiculous. Today i felt like an elephant. I went shopping to find something cute for alysa's wedding, and it was right under my nose at target. makes me look like 2 elephants put together side by side.
I can't wait to come home!!! i hope to see you all! monday through wednesday should be good times to meet! call me with what you can do! then we will get this all planned...
but before i come home there are some news flashes...
1. we aren't buying a house. we are not ready to settle down, and it looks like we will be moving back to mn next year after michael graduates. i need home. i need mn. i love my wells girls and still have a year with them but i want to create better relationships with my mn friends too, to make up for my college foolishness. friends are too important to lose, and it hurts to think i could have ruined anything because i spent too much time with mike and school and work. just want to let you know how much i love you all! you are all so important to me.
2. my parents informed me yesterday that they put our home on the market... and the cabin... and the boat. what the f**k. that is my home, and well, my cabin too. i am happy it will free up money and stress for them, but truthfully i have already delt with so much change, it's going to be hard. so now my dear friends, i need to make some camping trips up north and maybe acquire the ability to rock climb... once my weight is controlled and my mass doesn't pull the mountains down into the ground.
3. well, i don't know, those are the 2 biggies and it's wierd to only have 2 so i will just say how excited i am to see you all! next post should have some more pictures, not just kitties.

LOVE YOU!

run.

I started running again. my fat a@@ is bigger than i ever thought it could be. sometimes i wonder if i should gain some more and go on biggest loser and win a million... then i think of how much i hate to be on film. it just does not workout. so that means one thing... stop watching tv and live in my running shoes. there is a guy who comes into wells fargo and is a boot camp instructor and without a doubt i will be doing that when i get back from training in MN.
I think i am going to get showered and make dinner. i am actually in the mood to cook tonight. it's funny how much i used to dream about having my own kitchen and making fun things... hahahahha! i hate cooking, but i will tell you one thing.. i enjoy eating.

i miss you all so much you don't even know! i regret so much moving out. so much.


there are some pictures for you. sorry i didn't rotate that one... it's time to shower, make some tacos and catch up on tv... sad but true!!!

AHHH!

HOW FRUSTRATING! I promise I will post some pictures next time. i just wasted 10 minutes of my day trying to post some pictures of chesty and ozzy. oh crap... anyways.

I took my dumb art content test today. it was hard. i hope i passed. if not, oopps i have to try it over. now i am on an art spree, i don't know what i want to do. a nice children's book writer came into wells fargo a little while ago and we got to talking and now she wants me to illustrate a book for her. this is a dream. i love to draw, and i need to be living my dreams while i am not dealing with menapous and all that crap... like most middle aged women wanting to live their dreams... with kids. so now that i cleared up some time with having the test done... i will give it some more time. there are so many things i want to do, it's ridiculous. it all started happening suddenly and i don't know how to manage my time. i also want to lose like a lot of weight, i want to be a hottie pa tottie. it's about darn time for that. i've been fat my whole life and want to experience the lighter side of it.

i am so excited to be flown up to mn for verizon training. i kid you not! 400 dollars on airfare! that is only 1 of the 4 times they send me up... not including i get my own rental car, my own suite at the plymouth venician holiday inn express and anything i want for dinner! i feel like i won a prize... even though i will be learning about cell phones and stuff. PLEASE visit me there! anytime after 5pm! we need to bring back pounce and girl night. they have a lovely hot tub and pool there too! now i need to get through the next 2 weeks at wells fargo. ick, ick and ick! at least i love my girls at wf! they are the greatest. they befriended a wierdo like me.

SO yea... i need to get ready for the night. i woke up not too long ago from a well needed nap. ozma decided to wake me up. the little brat.

well LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

Hello

This is a short blog to start it off. I am blogging here to rekindle my sismances with my friends up in MN. I miss you all so dearly and i need to keep up with you. You are all still thought of often and i wish so badly to spend a day with each of you going out and shopping... sipping chai, talking about EVERYthing and laughing. This may sound creepy in a way i guess, but it's late and i am the worst writer/thinker and such at night. Adina, this was a great idear. I am glad to catch up... over blog, because we used to be so OBSESSED with it. So, in a nut shell this is what the scoop is....

1. i live in omaha, and i kinda like it.... i may end up here for awhile which is good and bad. I feel like I have grown up and gotten to know myself here and be strong. I spent my first 2-3 months eating my sorrows, watching more tv than i thought i could ever image and waste away... then i met some nice people and starting living again.

2. i got married and am the happiest wife there has ever been in the existence of human kind. i married the man of my dreams and he makes me forever happy about everything. he is funny, lovable, cute as a manly button, and means everything to me... second to Jesus...

3. i have not just one, but two cats/kittens. my life long dream was to have one, and now i have 2! there is cheaster (chester, which is actually cheaster the II. mike had a cheaster when he was a little boy and couldn't spell...) and he is 3-4 months and is an adorable orange tabby who acts like a dog at times. then there is ozma (ozzy) my baby weezer (weezes all the time...). he is the black cat that i have always dreamed about getting and clings to me miraculously. he will be a year in may and mike seems to think he is a little pudgy... but i guess i can relate.

4. I start a new job in a couple weeks that enables me to come up to MN for a month (not on weekends) and i get to speak spanish. i get paid to speak spanish to anyone who doesn't know english... it pretty awesome to get that, and i think i will also go back to get my masters in marketing/advertising... so i can davel in that using my love of art... they pay for it so why not. it just needs to be business related.... i can still teach too. which i will apply to teach art at a community college and get paid beaueau bucks for teach low level courses for 2 nights a week. WHOO HOO!

5. I am tired and that is all i feel like writing tonight...i have to sleep then wake up and start my crazy life up again!

Goodnight and I love you ALL so immensly you couldn't possibly understand!

keep blogging!