i'm a dork

I am making up for missing so many blogging days by blogging twice in a day. oh well. so. today was interesting. and i quite frankly have never had to deal with such large issues. on my break today my mom called and left a message saying basically to apply for edina because they have a few art teaching positions and i have connections there. i don't know what to do. so i am applying and if i get it i will be moving back to mn. i have so much i am scared of. i have a new good job... we are getting super cheap rent! and i just feel like there is unfinished business in this state i need to recon with. but i know when my stomach starts hurting, i need to grow up and face the news and do what is best for my future. i just hate dealing with schools. they take forEVER to make a decision... it's scary, especially now with so many jobs on the line... and the move. i'm freaking out. at the beginning of march, we thought we were moving to omaha into a house... now we may be moving back this year! WHAT THE HELL! help me friends! i hate this. on top of that, the test taking people left me a message. that is not natural... and i can't call until monday! i didn't cheat, and i hope i didn't fail it so bad i'm never allowed to take it again! i am so nervous!
Luckily i'm done at well fargo, and on to new and better things. i am learning what it means to not be in control of life... and trusting only good will be in the future by trusting God. I am also grateful tomorrow is birth control appreciation day! mike has decided he wanted to take a day and appreciate all the crap my body has had to go through to not become pregnant. the emotions going nuts... the need to eat more.... i don't know. any day he wants to spoil me. that is awesome!
well... i am going to unwind and try to sort through all of these things going on!

much love to everyone!

I have 2 minutes to update.

This is brief but i have been hella busy and i need to be at work in 40 minutes and i am sitting her not quite fully dressed. LAST DAY AT WELLS FARGO! i am so excited! yes! and i can't wait to see you all up in the beautiful and nearly perfect state of MN! especially for card night!!!! wednesday or thursday!
I feel quite a bit happy right now.
TALK TO YOU SOON!